Sunday, July 26, 2009

A Debutante's Ghetto.

So, of course, having developed my own disturbed microcosm of self-pity, medical knowledge, Walter Mitty movie dreams and idle bliss, I only found out yesterday that Dash Snow died, almost two weeks ago, at the age of 27.  

It seems odd, but the first word that came to mind was :"Blimey!" ( It's partly due to a father who adopted a British-ism or two. Everything was "bloody" this and "bloody" that.)   Yes, I am aware of my poseur-istic tendencies.
 
But then it might be somewhat appropriate to falsely adopt another culture's slang in reference to Dash Snow.  When I first read about him, it was showcase the up-and-coming talent of the New York art world, who by the time of publication, already escalated into the welcoming sphere of the Establishment.  Ah, but that's the rub: they were already of a product of it.  Every single artist in that article came from privilege, including Dash--who chose to relinquish his truly aristocratic pedigree and become a boy of the streets.  But what gets me is that his background---all their privileged backgrounds---sucks the revolutionary nature of the aesthetic revolution that they preach.  

It's just disturbing to think about a young man, who has been handed everything on silver platter, who has been rewarded for any inclination or even thought, to suddenly roll up his elbow-patched, designer blazer and wield a spray-can.  The worst part is that he knows how to exploit it, how to cracks that piece of cement by peddling it as high art.  Because what is one man's outlet to a dupe a system that has made a habit of undermining him is another man's way of perpetuating the evil cycle in the first place.  

Now I'll get off my soapbox, and pay my respects.  
RIP DASH.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Battered with a good helping of butter.


Dearest whatever stranger happens upon this remote piece of cyberspace,

Well, the move happened and probably is still evolving.  I transferred myself, more than bruised from the bustle and vacant wasteland of glorified suburbia known as Los Angeles, and into my old playground known as Kansas City.   The decision to rewind back to an awkward adolescence and deal with an altered power-struggle with the parents has generally been a bit controversial.  The person who didn't make a peep through it all, however, was Kris.  In his typical, deceptively laid back style, he shrugged it off, just lamenting the fact  the distance between us is now bridged with a slightly more extensive flight and definitely not with a 6 hour car drive down the Californian coast.

Anyhow, the adjustment was a little difficult, what with a full surgery schedule and an apartment that was emptied and a mother going slightly crazy.  I didn't say goodbye to anyone as I just didn't have the time, and even today, slight PTSD dreams seep through, only for me to wake up in a panic and realize that I'm thankfully no longer cheap labor.

Gradually, with the past few weeks, everything is unfolding.  I created a makeshift study in the attic near the HD television ( yeah, real productive), but it overlooks the trees and the Bishop's house.  My former kitchen table and my old lamp now are tucked away with my brass horse and a little ledge that I've turned into a bookshelf.  Among my books, you can find Dean Young, Creasy, old moleskins, and a nice large bottle of Black Label that gathers dust as a bookend.  So do not worry, I am still relatively temperate ( though the half a bottle of moscato that I downed a month ago provided me with a memorably warm feeling that overpowered the desolation of being overworked.)

I merely have ventured back into this dusty bit of territory(the blog, the attic, the Midwest) because I hope to resurrect a part of me that eternally struggles with my growing profession, a part that enjoys ruminating about everything and nothing while strolling through a tree-lined street, that craves to spend one day of the week just painting, scribbling, typing and gradually uncovering a muddled voice that is longing to hit that one impossible, perfect note.  Loudly and unapologetically. 

So wish me luck. 




Resurrection of the Previous Blog, POST 1

Salutations, ALL!
Hi everybody. I have ample time as a fourth year medical student to indulge my thoughts and commit it to the blogging bandwagon. I actually chose this site, despite its dearth of interesting layouts, because it is more accessible to my near and dear ones. Futhermore, I was on the phone with Barbara who regaled me with the diary entries that my friends created while cavorting through the romantic roselit streets of paris and I suddenly decided these crazy entries require a BLOG. So when I get my requested photocopy of these most bizarre yet hilarious documents, this blog shall serve its true purpose. In the meantime, I am in the process of mentally prepping myself for making a complete fool of myself in bollywood drag to a scant audience in a gym. The whole number ends with an interpretational dance scene with me giving birth to Josh while Mustapha sits in a meditative position and recites random words like ” TRUST” “ORTOLANI” and “LYUBA.”

Actually what this site really needs is a copy of the outline of the French epic I plan on writing based on my own life and my brush with the guillotine.

dm

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One Response to “Salutations, ALL!”
Ginseng Girl Says:
March 3rd, 2005 at 10:03 am edit
oh dear devika of mines,

why you so torment me, you almost guillotine? please dears don’t die, if you die, i down poison like leo the romeo.

you like leo i remembers, so long time, for you, i will be romeo, tight pants, shirts with laces, i dress anyways you wish.

please live and we can be so happy together, i make you favorite foods every night. and be leos all day.